MadnessMantra
#78148
This Troper doesn't have a specific one, it normally varies depending on the situation. Though, during a week-long breakdown (lots of shitty things happened to me, even shittier than my normal shitty life) I was reduced to repeating the name of a fictional character I have a crush on and wishing I could hallucinate her. It was a pretty bad breakdown.
#78149
This Troper also has different Madness Mantras depending on the situation. Depending on whether she's alone or not it will either be said, written, or thought. Her latest said one was "It's all OK, it's all OK, it doesn't matter if this road is very thin and next to a car lane because I won't fall, it's all OK, all OK, I'm not a idiot alright SHUT UP I AM, it's all OK, everyone does mistakes, it's all OK". Written was "I don't get this I don't get this I don't get thisIdon'tgetthisidontgetthisidontgtethois" (and yes, my writing went that bad within a short time). Another written case would be something that she wrote in German class while "
Stepfording": (in swedish) "kill kill kill kill kill kill murder murder murder blood tears anger paranoia
cicadas kill kill kill *insert weapons here* sadness suicide murder kill kill blood intestines blood bloodbloodblood kill kill" et.c. until class was over... the thought mantras are all the time.
#78150
This Troper pretty banal mantra is 'Shut up shut up shut up shut up shut up...', but she knows a person, who in situstions of stress will start repeating the word 'transmission'. Hell knows why.
#78151
This troper, just now: "STOPCORRECTINGMESTOPCORRECTINGMESTOPCORRECTINGMESTOPCORRECTINGMESTOPCORRECTINGME" (etc. etc.)
#78152
Also: "Cold cold cold cold cold cold cold cold I hate winter I hate winter I really hate winter freezing cold my hands are going numb so cold it's so cold cold cold cold cold"
#78153
{{Coximind}}: "William stop that. William stop that. William stop that."
#78154
This troper knows she's not nuts, and that she must be doing it on purpose, but whenever she has a thought she considers to be 'embarassing', she will think repeatedly: "Shut up, you're dead. Am not. Are too. It doesnt matter." After a few rounds of that, she manages to find something usefull to concentrate on instead.
#78156
Hold on, let me look in the mirror. ''Looks.'' Yes. Yes, I do believe so. Nice to meet you, me.
#78157
I... I don't remember typing any of this. Though I tend to do something along the lines of "No. Die, die, die, die. Shut up I want to die just kill me now I hate myself. I want to die, I want to die, I want to die." I'm not usually self-loathing, just when I feel embarrassed.
#78159
Before
this troper was diagnosed with Tourette's syndrome, it appeared that she had something like this; same behaviour, different cause. (And no, I don't swear uncontrollably; I repeat words and phrases, and muscles sometimes jerk of their own volition.)
#78160
This Troper once had the misfortune to discover a rabid ''Literature/{{Twilight}}'' fan on [=YouTube=] who had "Jacob Black is real in my mind" plastered all over her background.
#78161
This troper knows quite an
insane Twilight fan who always says Edward ish sexah. Nearly all the time, it is maddening
#78163
This troper has never quite been able to shake "I couldn't fix it". In the absence of alcohol, he usually manages to keep it in his head or a quiet mumble at worst. This is the nicer of the two. When the other one starts it's time to go find a nice quiet room to hide in.
#78164
This troper tends to mumble, "It's all right now, he he he..." under her breath or in her head... but when people hear her, it's creepy.
#78165
They're coming to take me away, ha-haa, they're coming to take me away ho ho. To the funny farm where life is beautiful all the time, they're coming to take me away...
#78166
During moments of stress, this troper tends to murmur one particular phrase. For instance, once, when losing a dog tag she was
very attached to all she could say was "I couldn't find it" on loop. This is usually accompanied by the fetal position if she's sitting/lying down and hair pulling. Describing it sounds a bit like an old movie about insane killers or something, but there you have it.
#78167
This Troper watched Dead Silence what is {{High Octane Nightmare Fuel}} to the core a year ago, and upon seeing it she was almost scared to witless. When she was supposed to go sleep all se could do was rock back and forth on her bed, stare blankly and repeat sentence "She is coming to take me, coming to take me and kill me, yes, I can't sleep or she'll come and make a doll out of my ROTTING CORPSE.
Ha...haha...heeheheehh"
#78168
This Troper would like you to not link to that, so she is taking the link away. She just read a single trope on there. And now her SurvivalMantra is coming in to play. ''I don't want to die I don't want to die I don't want to die''
#78169
This troper is a former {{Yandere}} who is now severely emotionally repressed - while this is better for everyone, there are still times when his thoughts run along the lines of, "I want to die I want to die I want to die," "I'LL KILL HIM I'LL KILL HIM I'LL KILL HIM," "leave me alone don't talk to me go away don't come near me don't touch me don't talk to me..." ...and so on. He keeps these as thoughts unless he's alone.
#78170
This Troper is shy and has a fear of elderly folk so you can only imagine her horror when she found out, that her class is going to go to an old folk's home and each student will take care of single elder. The bus was leaving in 30 minutes when we were informed about it and just like that this 16-years old Troper was reduced to the mentality of 4-year old and she proceeded to rock back and forth in her chair, crying and muttering "Oh God, I don't wanna go, I don't wanna go, pleace don't force me to come with you, I can't do it, I'll die of horror, I'll surely die..." She is sure that she traumatized the teacher and few students with her creepyness. She has said this also in few other times when overstruck by fear.
#78171
It used to be that when this troper was all alone and really bored, he'd mutter the phrase "I'll kill them all" ''without even realizing it''. Cue double-take as he realizes what he just said.
#78172
A much LighterAndSofter example: a friend recently asked
me why I was muttering, "dear Goddess, not the
yaks!
Not the yaks! Anything, anything but them..." I hadn't even noticed. Upon discovering this tendency, I caught myself muttering similarly about
soldier ants, rothes, and
carp.
#78174
She has a bad habit of chanting 'hate hate hate hate hate hate...' when even slightly pissed off, rising in volume depending on circumstance. 'I don't get it'/'don't understand' is another common one when upset, often leading to classification as TheWoobie. Also refers to herself in the third person if tired and unwilling to connect to reality.
#78175
this troper is having trouble getting past rejection and it amplified his tendancy to repeat things over and over when woried or stressed. "the day you say good bye is the day you give up" and "I've been ignored, abussed, insulted and rejected. She thinks I'm stupid and annoying." are most common.
#78176
This troper occasionally gets migraines so severe they cause his vision to swim he will later find himself subconsciously repeating this simple yet somehow horrifying phrase: "It's there, it was there but for a second the shadow was there where'd it go did it see me did I see it?"
#78177
"Nice things don't happen to me. Nice things don't happen to me. Nice things don't happen to me! '''Nice things don't happen to me!'''"
#78178
This troper has been known to mutter "Cold cold cold cold coldcoldcoldcold" on particularly frosty days. Also "I'll kill them I'll kill them with cleavers"> I'll kill them" and so on.
#78179
"All alone, alone, alone, all alone now." Creepy? Yes.
#78180
"Don't freak out, don't freak out, don't freak out, don't freak out, don't freak out, don't freak out!!!" That's me in a room full of people.
#78181
Wouldn't that be SurvivalMantra
#78182
Only if it's working.
#78183
I'm also like that. Except it's "I can do this." for me. Combined with me being a MotorMouth, the only thing people hear is a low mutter going "[=IcandothisIcandothisIcandothisIcandothisIcandothis=]"
#78184
"Must not kill, must not kill, must not kill." That's the tame one. Japanese sound effects usually mean something good or something ''very bad''. Lately,
koru koru koru koru has become fairly common.
#78185
"I am Tamuru! I am your
GOD! I will
BURN this earth,
RAZE it to the ground and take what is MINE!" usually when I get pissed off at someone. And yes, I actually say tamuru rather than my real name.
#78186
This troper apparently does this in tongues. Or possibly just nonsense syllables. Often to the tune of random songs.
#78187
"I'm sorry, make it go away, please make it go away, I'm sorry..." Complete with hysterical giggling and rocking in the corner. Oh, yes, nervous breakdowns are fun.
#78188
When I freak out, I have a tendency to mutter "Quiet, now. They can hear us, Little One." It's incredibly creepy.
#78189
This troper's experience with a stage of ''IWannaBeTheGuy''. #QUOTE#'''Me''': (Dies) Dammit! (Dies) Dammit! (Dies) Dammit! (Dies) Dammit! (Dies) Dammit! (Dies) Dammit! (Dies) Dammit!
#78190
In my experience that's a fairly tame reaction.
#78191
Chocolate milk, chocolate milk, chocolate milk...
#78192
Stopitstopitstopitstopitstopitstopit... I'm never quite sure who exactly I'm talking to.
#78194
"I am slowly going crazy, one, two, three, four, five, six, switch. Crazy going slowly am I, six, five, four, three, two, one, switch. I am slowly going crazy, one, two, three, four, five, six, switch. Crazy going slowly am I, six, five, four, three, two, one, switch. [...]"
#78195
This Troper has a tendency to mutter the exact same string of curses under her breath whenever she's mad, combining this with the ClusterFBomb. For example: Someone takes this troper's parking space at school (which shouldn't happen, seeing as how it has HER F**KING NAME ON IT!), and she'll say "F**k f**k f**k f** k *ss s**t f**k f**k s**t b***h s**t s**t f** k" until she calms down enough to resist the urge to key the offender's car. Yes, it's almost always the exact set of cursing that I just said.
#78196
When I was lost in Disneyland: The world is great the world is great the world is great the world is great the world is great the world is great thew orld is great the world is great the world is great the world is great the world is great the world is great the world is great. Repeat for a few hours.
#78197
When this troper gets in a place full of people, it is common to hear her saying "don't freak out, don't freak out, don't freak out, SHUT UP, SHELDON, don't freak out, don't freak out, don't freak out, SHUT UP, SHELDON, don't freak out, don't freak out, don't freak out, SHUT UP, SHELDON (and so on)". In many cases it only stops when I comfort myself by saying "It's okay, you may wash your hands as many times as you want when you get home".
#78198
"Victory: SHOTGUN! HAHAHAHAAH!" You would never believe the story behind that one. It has a bear in it.
#78199
"What. What. What. What. What. What..." - This Troper upon reading a specific scene in the novel confederacy of Dunces
involving a certain character, thoughts of a dog, and masturbation. She continued to say "What" for a good twenty minutes until her mind began to cope with the scene by dousing itself with a good dose of BrainBleach.
#78200
This troper has a strong habit of mumbling "
The Emperor Protects" a few times when in awkward, stressful or dangerous situations.
#78201
This troper, in moments of extreme embarrassment or shame, murmuring "I'm just going to cut my throat." And motioning to do so. Less of a harmless SurvivalMantra when it became evident that she was actually suicidal a great deal of the time. More harmlessly, "Wendigo."
#78202
Toomuchnoisetoomuchnoisetoomuchnoisetoomuchnoise... I don't deal well with crowds.
#78203
"Dead inside...it's dead inside...it's dead inside..." Said anytime this troper's inside a hospital for more than about six minutes.
#78204
This troper's isn't really madness, more like "get out of my head" mantra. Normally whenever he inadvertently brings up an embarrassing memory, he will repeatedly say a curse word for some reason that even he doesn't know.
#78205
Never any hats. Never any hats. Never any hats. Never any hats. Said whenever this troper has no idea what to do.
#78206
This Troper's changes periodically. Past gems have included, "my lovely thing," and "I don't know" (the last still pops up, and tends to be shouted hysterically while sobbing).
#78207
Sometimes I write journal entries with a lot of weird crap in them. Usually it's along the lines of this. Generally shading into SurvivalMantra: "work hard, be evil": I have too fucking much work, a character in a book is notable to me for actually thinking it'd be cool to
live forever despite the fact his life
pretty much sucks. In a certain situation where he's
not planning to kill himself because he's upset but because
he'll get better and things will turn out better if he does, he doesn't anyway, he chickens out. This eventually results in a FaceHeelTurn somewhere down the line. If you stick it out, you might turn out evil. So, okay then, turn out evil,
villains have more fun anyway. Work hard, be evil. Work hard, be evil...
#78208
I recently gave myself a rather nasty cut on my stomach. (it's a long story) Being a compulsive skin picker, I have to tell myself whenever I have my shirt off, "Don't pick it don't pick it don't pick it don't pick it don't pick it..."
#78209
This troper has a tendency to say whatever he's doing at that time as a MadnessMantra eg 'Trope. Trope. Trope.' or 'Walk. Walk. Walk.' Also 'People. People. People.'
crowds are not good.
#78210
"You're just playing. I'm just playing. You're just playing. I'm just playing. You're just playing. I'm just playing..."
#78211
I was rendered catatonic for two full years, I had both verbal and physical mantras (I said them for hours on end until I lost my voice). It's just an affect of dealing with shock (in addition to being related to other things as well). In my case it created a feeling of comfort in repeating the same words/motions, and to stop drove me crazy. Of course, I also have Asperger's Syndrome (at a moderate level), but I witnessed others who did not have my condition that were rendered catatonic act the same way.
#78212
{{Tidal_Wave_17}}: Whenever things get too bad, expect this troper to look up and start reciting, in a
childlike voice. "Row row row your boat, merrily down the stream, life it but a dream. Row row row your boat, merrily down the stream, life it but a dream. Row row row your boat, merrily down the stream, ''life it but a dream.''"
#78213
I'm sorry! I'm Sorry! I'm Sorry!
#78215
Me too, even when I didn't even do the thing in question, or it was a complete accident. I think it's a consiquence of my Asperger's syndrome.
#78216
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#78217
Theywillburnallwillburnexceptmeandmybeloved
flantheywillburnallwillburnexceptmeandmybeloved
flantheywillburnallwillburnexceptmeandmybeloved
flan...
#78218
I manage to come up with a different one every time I remember something embarrassing I did, which usually involves the word "bleeding".
#78219
Fictional example: In a game I'm running, part of one of my character's Villainous Breakdown includes the repeated phrase: "I don't want to die" because she's extremely paranoid that the hero will kill her, and she's in love with him. Because she suppressed her emotions at a very young age, she never learned how to deal with them in a healthy manner.
#78220
Do not fear, Do not fear, Do not fear, Do not fear, Fear is the mind killer, Do not fear...
#78221
Random 5-second clips of Touhou music playing out my mouth, looping for minutes or hours until it eventually changes to another section or theme. Just like a frozen Windows 98 game.
#78222
This troper always has different ones, depending upon what is distressing her at the moment, but some recurring ones have been "
bullet in the brainpan, squish," recitation of the "Monday's child is fair of face" nursery rhyme (this troper is a Wednesday's child full of woe, thus why this one became a MadnessMantra rather than a SurvivalMantra), "these people don't think," and the rather long but difficult to escape "wanna break it, take a brick to its head and smash it into wet and stinking bits, never hurt me, never hurt me..." and its variations. ("It" generally being her schoolmates.)
#78223
"I can't help worthless can't help worthless can't help worthless can't help can't help can't help can't help..."
#78224
I've caught myself engaging in this: "shut up shut up shut up shut up" when I'm in a tense mood and my sister is spewing forth a stream of maddeningly irritating drivel, "this is ''disgusting''" (though that one wasn't continuous) this one time when I spent about half an hour obsessively picking all the dog hair, person hair, and lint out of my bedroom carpet, and "there's nothing wrong with my eyes, there's nothing wrong with my eyes, THERE IS NOTHING WRONG WITH MY EYES". (It's better for my peace of mind if I don't explain the last one.)
#78227
This troper's girlfriend just fell asleep at her computer for three hours while I sat here at mine waiting for her. One of my friends suggested she might be dead. I then delivered a grand {{TheReasonYouSuckSpeech}} and stopped talking to him. I then spoke to another friend. This is pretty much all I could say "kill killkillkkillkkoilllikl." I got up to get some water and pretty much said to myself "Need to kill him...gotta kill him...need to make him dead...gotta stab him...gotta shoot him...don't care how I kill him...gotta make him dead...somehow....he needs to die..." You may find me insane, but if you knew this guy like I do...Also, that other friend told me not to go
Shizuo on AIM.
#78228
...To be fair though, he also suggested she was asleep and was right. But still, dude's an asshole.
#78229
For this troper, it's mentally repeating this lyric from ''Already Over'' over and over and over. ''I'd give it all to you, letting go of me, reaching as I fall, I know it's already over now, nothing left to lose, loving you again, I know it's already over, it's already over now.''
#78230
This troper knows a guy who, when being heckled by the troper's friend, will repeat, "D***it Lola d***it Lola d***it Lola d***it Lola d***it Lola! (...)"
#78231
This female troper surely loves this trope. She usually goes "Please just turn your back and go away go away go away go away" when she saw her ex (she's still at school and obviously her ex is in the same school. She always met him at recess). Also she usually turn her drawing book (actually an unused textbook) into a RoomFullOfCrazy with "I hope we could become friends again" written almost everywhere.
#78232
This troper has the habit of reciting the Fibonacci series, to calm him/her/itself down, or even just to reset his/her/its mental state. And then there are the times when it still doesn't work...
#78233
Watching a relationship that should've ended years ago go through the same steps over and over and over makes This Troper-girl think of the Ouroboros, the snake that eats itself in a never-ending cycle. Whenever she thinks about it for more than a half-hour--which is ''often''--she ends up dissolving into a chant of "Unite ouroboros, unite ouroboros, unite ouroboros, unite ouroboros, unite ouroboros, unite ouroboros unite ouroboros unite ouroboros..." in a dull monotone.
#78234
This troper occasionally uses
"you hate X you hate X you hate X", where X is whatever is angering her, when she needs to calm herself down. Repeat as long as necessary.
#78235
Yesterday this troper just realised how much she does this. Particularly if I am scared.
#78236
This troper tends to say "I hate myself. I hate myself. I hate myself. I hate myself..." repeatedly followed by
"Shut up. Shut up. Shut up Shh, sweetie, you're okay. I hate myself..." and repeat.
#78239
Today (05/20/11) is my 20th birthday. I keep thinking to myself, "I'm in my twenties... in my twenties... in my twenties... in my twenties... in my twenties..."
#78240
This troper sings "Daisy Bell" under his breath when he's nervous. This troper is nervous a lot.
#78242
This tropette used to mumble nonsense when trying not to think about something. out of the blue I'd remember something
horrifying or
embarrassing and start absentmindedly mumbling repeatedly. Usually "Yeah... Okey-dokey..." or something similar. Whatever phrase my brain pulled up. I thought it was a silly habit-- then I accidentally did it in front of someone else and it was branded as a MadnessMantra.